Oh gosh.

So. Like. Being the nosey little jerk I am... :P I looked at Dave's profile again... on that site we "met". Bah. And apparently he signed in today... and I was talking to him on msn... and... I dunno. He wasn't as... happy. Hm. I dunno.

Haha. And now I'm like totally jealous. And it sucks. And I don't know why I care so much... or if I even do... really... bah. Just wanted to be liked. :P

Oh well. I'm being so... dramatic with all of this... it's really dumb.

And he's always on at like... 10... and then I start talking to him... and keep talking to him past 1030, which is when South Park is on... so I haven't seen it in like 3 days. And it kinda saddens me. Because... I like that show. :P A lot. But clearly not as much as I like this guy. Hmm. If I'm missing my best friend, tv, for him... he must be cool. Bah. I don't want to walk to school tomorrow... we'll see what time I wake up. Hehe. Sigh. I don't think I like dealing with boys. It's annoying. And time consuming...

Dean Cain = 40 (but still so SO dreamy :P )

It's Dean Cain's 40th birthday today. Did you know that? I bet you didn't... sigh. One day... one day. :P So... happy birthday to Dean Cain! :P Haha. Wouldn't that be awesome if he like googled himself and found this? I'd probably die. :P Hahaha.

Anyway... on to being not so creepy...

Another week has begun. It will be crappy, I'm sure. I have a LOT of stuff to do... for school... and have decided that I really do need a job. And to move out. Sometime. Soon-ish. However... since I do have so much stuff to do, I think the whole... need a job thing may push me over the edge. I do like my "down time" so to speak. It calms me. Being alone for like 2 hours is nice after school... however my mother has taken this week off. To "take care of" the dog. It's annoying... she's here. I was watching 90210, and she was all what is this?? And I'm like *groan*... go away mother. :P Whatever...

After this week, I have no school for two weeks. My summer fast approaches! Whee. No idea what I'm gonna do. Might go up to the lake and walk around a lot. Probably. Or just sit around... meh. I wonder if Dave got a new job yet... he quit his other one... heh. Cuz he found it too boring? Psh, you do that with everything... you're... gonna... eh, whatever. I'm somewhat... hesitant about that guy. I want to know what he thinks... of me... kind of. Unless it's something horrible, like how I'm... annoying and creepy. I don't want to know that. Blah. Whatever. I sketched some stuff in class today, because I was bored. It's not very good. It never is. Bah.

Breathe.

Oh... my heart. It aches for this boy. :P Oh man. It's so depressing how much I like him. Hahaha.

But whatever. I mean... I... I dunno. He's just so nice and sweet and... something inside tells me it's not going to end well. Which makes me sad. Hmm. I'm definitely not backing down though. Let the trauma come. It'll be worth it. :P I hope...? What am I talking about? I dunno. Maybe the fact that he actually might like me? Wow. Seriously, it's... pretty nice.

But maybe he doesn't. He... hm. It's almost like he was sending me those huge smilies (:D) too much during our... "conversation" on msn... if you can call it a conversation. It was more like a... well... it was short. But sweet. Short and sweet. :P I need to find a hobby. Aside from knitting a long scarf. It's getting old... fast. I want a touque. I'm in the process of drawing another comic... and then I'm going to make my own... with my own ideas and characters. It's gonna be sweet. Yeah.

I commented in a thread on Kevin's site... and someone was like... who the fuck are you? ... I still haven't answered it... because I plan to never go back to his site. I hope. :P Because he's... weird. And... doesn't answer me. Haha. Jerk. :P

Untitled. (How could this happen to me)

So, yeah... I sent Kev that pm one night... and he replied... and then I answered back, that was Thursday. But I think he hasn't answered cuz... at the end of it I was all, so have you rented Pirates yet? Cuz like... I will rent it for you and make you watch it if I have to.

Or something like that I think. Too... strong? Haha. Whatever. Cuz dayymmnn. I mean. Just watch it. Anyway... so yeah he hasn't answered yet. :P Maybe he's busy? But I mean, it's a message on his site, that I'm sure he frequents every freakin day. But whatever. I only sent him that one message cuz I was super bored and have known him longer than Dave. And could therefore rant about my boredom. Y'see? Yeah... and then I had to be all... somewhat leading him on again... maybe that's why he won't answer. He knows I'm just trying to lead him on and is sick of it? Whoa. I didn't know I could be so cruel. That's not cool. Hm. I really don't mean to be mean. I can't really help it. Meh... and it's not that mean it's just an email... i just said I'd make him watch it. Like sit there with him, far apart, and watch it. :P That's what I meant! Ahh. But why am I obsessing? I'm not. I just thought I'd mention it. That's all. And I wanna be his friend. Cuz he knows lots of things. And he could help me with shit. Yeah. Like... javascript and php and junk. that's it. I'm done.

My dog had surgery yesterday and stayed overnight at the vet. He should be coming back soon. Poor thing. Hmm...

Haha. Love the title. Oh Simpleplan. If your song is untitled but then has How Could This Happen To Me in brackets?... the thing in brackets is the title. It's not untitled. Fools. Got most of that rant from Ed the Sock. Or something. Well whatever. I'm done! Cya.

date no. 3 in ... not too much detail...

The movie was great. The company was great... I guess. :P Yeah, it was.

So I got there at like almost 330, and he was already there... had the tickets in hand. Damn it. Meh... sorta wanted him to pay, but I had got money out... and felt like spending... sort of. Meh. Oh well. Anyway... so then it's like 330 and we go into the theatre anyway... I mean the movie didn't start til 4. I thought we'd wander around a bit... but apparently not. Hm. So we sat in the theatre sorta talking... bout stuff and things... meh. Before we went in he asked me if I wanted a drink or anything and I was like no that's okay... and then like 5 minutes before the movie started, I was like... I actually do want a drink. :P Ha, I'm such a jerk. But I was getting thirsty... meh. So we went out to the concession and he pulls out his wallet and asks me what I want and I'm like it's okay, I can get it... and he's like no, no. I got it. Damn it. So yes. I think he really wanted a drink too, but... didn't wanna get one if I didn't... I dunno. I think he's weird like that... but you know, not too weird. Like... can't just get something he wants, I have to want it too? I dunno. Whatever. Or maybe he didn't wanna get it just in case I decided I wanted some and took a sip. :P Ewww cooties. And... germs. Seriously. Anyyyywaaayyy... so yeah. Got some drinks. Went back. Watched the movie. Great. I liked it. A lot.

I couldn't really concentrate on the last like 20 minutes cuz I had to pee reaaaallly bad, but wasn't sure if I wanted to ask him to move... so I just kinda... waited it out. :P Blah. Oh well. I woulda missed something important. So yeah. After it was over I practically ran to the bathroom... :P leaving him out in the hall to wait for me. That's why I try not to get anything in theatres cuz I have a small bladder... drinks just run right through me, it sucks. But yeah. So... anyway, he walked me all the way to my car (I like to park far away from things... :P) And I hugged him again. And said thanks and everything... and he was like have a good night... and... yeah. I dunno... I sorta think he likes me... :P Not totally sure if I want him to, you know? Well... actually I do, but... I dunno. Feels more like a friend thing again... but maybe not. I really have no clue. So yes. Another one for the books, I guess. Whee.

Kissing sorta is a big deal to me. Like on 90210, that Brandon just hands em out like candy... i don't get it. But I'm not a terribly touchy feely person.. well I'm sensitive... so sort of in that sense, but... I dunno. I don't really like people touching me that much. Dunno why. Space issues. So if I hug you, I like you. So yeah. Good enough for now. :P

Speaking of 90210. Totally missed it today to go see that movie. Worth it though. ;) I think... hm.

Wow!

Know what I just realized? No Chinese people added me to msn today. Hmm. They must read my blog. :P lmao. I find that amusing. Yes, I really do.

oh shit. date numbah 3. :P

*starts singing the omg! song* You know the one... omg, omg, omg, omg... etc. Dave's online... and the first thing he asked me was what I'm doing tomorrow... EEEEee. Yeah. Wow. So I was like i dunno. And he was like wanna catch a movie? And I was like which one? And he was like i dunno. And I was like k. And he was like what do you wanna see? And I was like clerks 2? And he's like sounds good. And I'm all yay! AHhhhhh. haha. Oh man. Um. Yeah. Something... is... hm. I'm happy that he's still talking to me to tell you the truth. Not that I was a huge creep last time, but... I dunno. AHhhh. No, okay. 3rd "date". Hm. Whoa. By the time Kevin and I had "gone out" three times it was over a... 6 month period. lmao. :P or something like that. This is... pretty cool.

And say WHAAAATTTT Jaimie???? The prof reads it still??? And he liked you???!!!! WHAT? EMAIL HIM! NOW! NOW NOW NOW! :D

That's embarassing. I was like... so should I pick you up? or meet there... or vice versa or something... and he's all... uhhhh.... we could meet there. And I'm all k sounds good, meanwhile i'm crushed. :P Whatevs. I'm not. little embarassed... i suppose. But whatever. Oh man, wouldn't that suck if this was some sort of sick setup? Shit. I'd die. If it was some huge not so elaborate prank. Meh. Who cares? Clerks 2. I wonder if he'll pay... I want him to. hahaha. Just cuz I'm broke. :P Oh well. I will bring my debit in case. Woo. No, I'll stop and get money... yeah. Yes. Tis what I'll do. Ooo on my walk home. Woo hoo. Plans. WEEKEND PLANS! Holy crap.

Whether you think you can or you can't... you're right!

So I was watching the news tonight, because my mother yelled at me and said my dad would be on it... talking about some boring stuff that... I don't care about but maybe should. Meh. Anyway. I didn't see him. Oh well. Big whoop. But there was this little kitten born with two faces. So cute, but very sad. It probably won't live long. And I started thinking about life... or something like it. I don't know. It's weird. I don't understand the whole process of growing up... getting older... getting a life. Heh. Blah.

Gas prices keep going up. I'm starting to think that instead of a VW rabbit, I should get a smartcar. But... I reallllllyyy want a rabbit. I'm not totally sure why, but.. I dunno. My mom used to have one. And I really liked it. And she totally wants one again, so she's gonna pay for like... half or something. SWEET. But she would also want a smartcar... but... I dunno. I shouldn't be driving anyway. It's summer. I am capable of waking up in the morning to leave early enough to get where I need to be. But... meh. Somedays... you know. Whatever. I'm not sure what's going on right now with my head. I've taken up knitting a scarf, perhaps the world's longest... it will not be done until snow hits that ground. That's my goal anyway. Because I really need to stop playing the ds while watching tv. I think it's... frying my brain. Sort of. Haha. I have no clue.

I know that I want to move out. Soon. Ish. Hopefully. When I get money. Which means I need a job. But I don't want a shitty fast food job... I want to get a job that I actually want. Like at that stop motion show place... do you know how happy that would make me? And possibly a little crazier... but that's a price I'm willing to pay.

I sent Kevin a "private message" ha... on his site last night, cuz I was bored. It was like two lines long... and then he sends me back this looonnnggg message about... everything that's going on. Haha. It was nice to read I suppose. I want to be his friend. Not his girlfriend. I think I've decided that. *gasp* a decision! But will it last? No. Probably not. Whatever. I totally need to stop... thinking. I keep doing that... haha. GRAH. Oh, it was a very productive day in class today... I did no doodling... aw, shucks. Maybe later... hopefully. But yeah... I did... 3 chapters. Boring. As. Hell. But I only have 3 more to go, and will hopefully finish them tomorrow! Hooray! Then I can start on my flash ASSIGNMENTS! OH GOD! SHIT! There's so much crap you can do in flash that... I dunno. It's just blowing my mind. Meh. Whatever. That Stacey... thinks she's so awesome... blah. Why is there always someone in your class that's like... teacher's pet? And... works 10x faster than everyone else? It used to not really be me, but sort of. It's weird not being that person. Haha. :P Done.

My desktop...

I clearly need to clean it up. I can't find a thing. Seriously... it took me like... 5 minutes to find that picture on my desktop. I had a picture to compare it too, because the picture was added, but I couldn't find the picture. But then I did. Thank goodness. Yeah... so... yeah. Just putting this here for the record. So I never make it this messy again. Oh, and no, I don't actually have a big porno folder. Wesley changed that, and I never changed it back, because people go on my computer and they're all... whhhaaattt? It's funny... sort of. Not really. I'll change it soon.

Argh

Another one?! Shit man. STop ADDING ME TO your damn msn. BLAH. Either it's the same person getting a new email address over and over... or it's a horde of crazed fans of mine. Either way, it's bugging me.

So yes. That's annoying.

Know what else is annoying? Not today. Today was kinda good. People sort of talked to me today... yeah.

Chad asked me how old I am. I said 19. He asked me when my birthday was... and I'm like October... and he's all.... so... you're gonna be 20?! And I'm like I KNOW! AHHHH. Thanks for bringing that up, buddeh. Stupid kid. Except he's not stupid... quite nice actually. Not that... if you're one you can't be the other. Ha. Whatever...

Anyway... I don't wanna like explode on this chinese kid, cuz what if it's not the same person over and over? He'll be like what the hell... I dunno.

So... ha. In class today I drew this what I think is hilarious picture of chamillionaire (sp? even though I don't care). I HATE that fucking song... so much! AHHHH. And it's on like 20 billion times a day. And it's like GRRRR. Anyway. I'm going to upload it to ze ozer blog. Indeed. 90210 is almost on! :P

Many things...

For some reason... I joined Kevin's little... site thing. Mainly cause I couldn't read the forums without joining, and I wanted to see what he and his friends talked about. The answer? A lot of... stuff...? Ugh. I dunno. None of it all that interesting, and I'm afraid to leave a comment. Ha.

But for some reason, I feel the need to check that site more than everyday. At least twice... hm. Why? Probably because he's been ignoring me. Sort of. Yeah. Only Jack, my alter ego truly knows why I do the things I do... I've never met him/her... it. But... it's somewhat entertaining so I'll let it slide. For now. Until it gets too out of control again. Then Jack, old buddy, you're being put down.

My dog is having his surgery on Friday. To fix the ligament in his leg. It's going to be a long and smelly recovery. Poor guy. Aww.

My two weeks off from school (summer vacation!) are coming up soonish. Yay. No idea what I'll do... hm.

I talked to Mandy about Kevin, and she said I should just leave it at the movie friends thing... she's convinced I only go because he pays. Which is not entirely true. I enjoy his company... usually. It's not like he's rude or anything. Super, super nice. Sigh. Why do I still talk about him? Why am I so fixated on my love life? Man... I should be focusing on school. I am, mostly. It's just these brain hiccups that distract me. Like oh man... eeemmmaaaiiillll me. Haha. What? I dunno. Time for bed. Almost.

Random Chinese people... on my msn. Why?

Where are all these Chinese people getting my email address? How/WHY are they adding me to msn? Over the course of like... 3 days... I guess... Everyday someone new with a chinese name has added me. Why? Gah. I just block them... because I have no idea what their names mean, and I thought maybe it's some kind of... trickery... haha. I dunno. I put one into a translator and it says: The reason pities the reason.
Deep.
Very deep.
But I'm not unblocking you.
In fact, I think I'll delete you.
I hate when people do that... just random folk add you to whatever i.m. they want... blah. So yeah. I'm afraid to talk to them because I think they'll try to hack in on my mac... impossible... but still. Don't trust random peoples... meh.

Wouldn't that be crazy if I was a huge deal in China? That would be crazy my friend. Hahaha. I haven't done anything that anyone would love me for. But that would be pret-ty awesome if I did... hahaha. Anyway... yeah. that's it. Just stating... that... people keep adding me, but I just block them... so if they read this, maybe they'll just give up.

D'I forget...

Hmm. Uh... darn what was I going to say? Crap. Something semi-important but not really... ehh... it'll come to me.

Oh I've been somewhat depressed the last two days... meh... and I was thinking how I'm a person who doesn't believe in much. I mean... the thing I believe in most is that I'm pro-choice. And that's probably because my mother used to be insane activist lady. :P But I don't think the government should be able to control what I do to my body... not that I do anything with it now... hm. But still. I think it's terrifying how so many things are illegal in the US... and yet so much isn't. I dunno. Canada too. It's weird. I guess I probably shouldn't say that because I really don't know much about it... hm. Whatever. I don't even know what I'm saying.

My head's so gone... I keep thinking about coffee boy... a little... and how some people keep... encouraging me, if you will, ... and trying to convince me he likes me. Which... I dunno. It's just raising my hopes higher and higher and I know they'll come crashing down. And it'll hurt. More than any time before. Because... I dunno. I've sort of gotten to know this guy... and he is genuinely nice... right now. And it's like... ahhh. Bah. Whatever. I really have no clue what I'm saying, so just ignore. Ignore! Ahh! Quit reading! No! Ah!

Oh yeah... um... no, I still forget. Haha. Cya.

So. I've started a blog which I'm going to post a bunch of good old crap pictures in. Whee! So... yeah. Probably won't put anymore in this one... I told myself I should just stick with the one blog, because I have sooo many... but I mean... one per site... or host... or whatever... but meh. I'll try it out. See if I like it or not. Yeah... I'm bored.

[edit]... I was totally gonna link it right before you commented :P. and then I forgot. But now I am. So yeah. Here it is. *thumbs up*. Added a new comic. I think it's cute. :P

Sure. SURE?!

me: so yeah... I guess I should go to bed... we should hang out again sometime... yeah... if ya want...

me: g'night

him: sure

him: have a good sleep

him: :D

him: g'night

me: thanks, cya

SURE? sure... hm. What the hell? In a perfect world he shoulda been like, why not make that sometime tomorrow? I can't stand to be away from you. Haha. But I guess that will never happen. But sure? Agh. What does that mean? Blah. I'm way too... I'm so overanalyzing this. I don't care. It's worth overanalyzing. And then he like ends it with a big happy face. Whatever. I'm so confused. :P Although I guess he agreed... sort of. Was I being too... forward? Does he just... pity me? Am I too fat? Ahhh... it was so hot out today... I couldn't wear a sweater. The thing that protects me. Sigh. :P I dunno. He hugged me back... it was a pretty weak hug though, I must admit. ha. Blah. Stop it, katy! I'm gonna make myself nuts. Stop thinking about it. Okay. Done. :) Waaahhh. You better call a wahhmbulance. Sigh. Frick. Blah!!!!!!

No after email this time... sigh. :P but he was on msn and talked to me.. I properly thanked him for the iced cap... and he asked me if i had a good time... I said of course i did. And then asked him if he did... he said he did too. So there ya go. I dunno. Hope we hang out again... he's really... I dunno. nice to be around. meh?

2nd date

It was fun. I do like him. It feels really comfortable with him. I dunno. Maybe it's just me.

I hugged him. He walked me to my car, and I hugged him. Too hot to kiss... plus... I... ahem... don't have much experience in that department. Haha. Oh god. :P LOSER! Ah. Whatever.

We met for coffee... he got there early this time... too excited I suppose.. ha... and I walked up to the place and he was outside having a smoke, so I talked to him for a minute, but then I was like I really need an iced cap... so I went in... and then he came in like 2 seconds later and paid for my iced cap. Damn, it was a date. Heh. So yeah... I dunno... we didn't have too much to talk about this time... well I guess we did. I dunno. I just really like him around. He's so funny. Then these two old men sat down beside us, and I was like... do you wanna go for a walk? And he was like sure... So we got outside and I was like omg! Let's go walk around in sobey's. Haha. And he was like okay... hahaha. He did what I wanted. Good man. :P

But yeah... he smokes. Not so hot. But he said he's tried quitting... and he is still trying... yeah... I'd like him to quit so that if I'm around him more, I won't stink like smoke... and... get cancer.

But yeah. After we walked the whole tour of sobey's we went back outside and went to the dollar store. Oh good times in there. Haha. He's so freakin' awesome. I dunno. I bought two bouncy balls. Yeah. He bought this goopy stuff and soon after got it stuck all over his hands. Hilarious. And while in the store he was playing with this one ball that had like dye in it... and it had a leak. He got it alll over his hands... so his hands were red. I couldn't stop laughing. :P Felt a little bad.

Then we went walking around. Found a park. Sat on swings for an hour reminiscing about our childyhoods. Hehe. Then it was 5 o'clock and I was like wow... so we went back to our cars... yeah. And... that's about it. Mandy should be coming over soon... yeah. and I will repeat what I just said in here to her. Or just make her read this... no I'll tell her. Yeah. He's so cute... and... just... I dunno. Really nice. I was like, no I can pay for it and he's all no, I got it. And I was like... okay... meh. I think I thanked him for it. I just wonder how long we would have hung out had I not had to be home to greet mandy... hmm. Well next time we hang out, I will be sure not to make any other plans. Indeed. I hope he doesn't think I'm too... immature... or anything... cuz I said how much I love swings... and bouncy balls... haha. Oh god. But he kept laughing... with me... so... yeah. I think... I dunno. I'm not getting my hopes up there too much.

My mom was all... where were you? You went shopping for 3 hours? Um... yes. Haha. She doesn't approve of... "online" meeting... things. She doesn't believe I know what I'm doing, and I trust my gut to the max. And so far it's been totally good to me. So yeah... :)

Sunday, Sunday, SUNDAY

Maybe I should start calling him Sunday coffee boy... guy... whatever. We're going for coffee again tomorrow, same bat time, same bat... er... location. And he was all woo!! and I was all... yeah... what does he want from me? Ahh. :P I'm not gonna have much to say... and it's gonna be busy again cuz it's gonna be like 30 something. Ew. What a nasty hot weekend.

Spose I should phone Heather sooner or later. So we can watch that movie tonight. Yeah... I really should. Hmm. I just don't wanna go outside right now, cuz I'll burn up like a donkey in... the... lava... zzzz.

self-explanatory?... ha. comics... oooo.

Hmm. I picked the most inopportune moment to skip out on 90210. Scott shot himself in the stomach... accidentally? Dang. Anyway... so by the end of the show, I was tearing up... and then I looked over at the picture of Shawna, and... well... cried. I haven't cried about that in a while. I cannot believe it's almost been a year and a half. It will be in August. 24th. That is just fucking nuts, okay? So... yeah. Dude, I'm gonna start crying again... heh. Sigh. I just don't know what to do anymore... I'm happy I have so many people who want to see me though, so I can keep my mind on that. :P

But it just... still feels so unreal. Like she... I don't know. I really don't know.

Feels earlier than 5. Hm.

I was thinking today how that now I have Illustrator... for 28 more days... haha... damn 30 day trials... that I don't need friends... or boys crowding up on my plate. But I love my friends. And blogger. Haha. Oh, what a loser I am. It's great. Really.

I still can't believe he wants to go for coffee again. ... there's no way in hell I'm that charming, mkay? Seriously. Although... well... haha. I have no idea. Maybe he's desperate? ;) Bah. But who am I kidding? It's totally my turn to be happy. I hope. :P Oh, goodness. Look at me go on... geez. shut up. k. done.

...

Apparently, I don't know men at all.

Hi,

Sorry it's taken so long to email you back, but I've been pretty busy. Uhhh, so what are you doing this Sunday? Did you want to meet for coffee again? Unfortunately, Sunday is the only day I can do anything. Hope to hear from you soon.

Bastard.

Just when I started liking Kevin again, you had to go and stir up these damn ... feelings again.

Yay!! :D :P But if you look, and I mean really look at that email... what does it really say?... hmm.

what's with that 'uhhh'... ? Why put it there? Why the hesitation? Haha. But yeah... I was supposed to hang out with Mandy this Sunday... is that the only day he's free for the rest of his life? Or just this weekend... I should ask. Cuz I'm not one to ditch my friends for some... attractive man. Haha. Actually, you know, it's never come up.

<.< >.>

It's funny because last night I was all muttering to myself 'there's always next time'... jerk... if he didn't mean it why'd he say it... and then this. I think I have like... I dunno. That happened with Kevin too. Ha. Oh man. I feel the plot thickening as everyday goes by. It's exciting stuff people! Haha.

But yes. I will email him and ask him if... I dunno. No, I'll email mandy first and ask her when we're hanging out... I'm going to assume evening... i think. It's usually what happens... afternoon is always too hot. Sigh. Blah.

Oh crap. And I'm supposed to hang out with Heather this weekend, and watch a movie. I'll phone her tomorrow, methinks. Yes. Dude, everybody wants a piece of Katy. lmao. Now, back to 90210. That... assface kid said something mean... yeah. Ha. Whee. What a day. Oh more stuff happened too. I went to this open house where they film a stop motion show in the city. It's so freakin cool! It has totally made me want to like... pursue a career in it. Which... yeah. I'm almost done school... so maybe more education is the answer? Perhaps. K, done.

Janey's Tiger Report

Haha. I couldn't go to sleep til I got this out of my system. I have no idea what it is. It sorta started out as a layout for a webpage... but... soon became something craptacular when I made it orange. I like it. :P So shitty, but it's supposed to be. So there ya go. Ha. Now, I have to go to sleep! Ahh.

Haha... oh whee. I freakin' adore Adobe Illustrator sooo much. :P I love that "tiger". :P I think it's cuuute. Haha.

Rick and Ryan

So yeah. This is... a drawing... of my brother's characters. It's small. Should made it bigger, but didn't wanna hog too much space. It's cute though. Sorta. I'm still not totally happy with it, but I really have no clue what to do with it... meh. :) I'm trying to make a comic with them... basically just redoing my brother's work. :P I'm an ass. Oh well. He doesn't mind. And it's good practice. So yeah. Whee.

I am. An Ass. I dunno. My brother dropped off a bunch of his comics he drew of these characters that I wanna use for a flash... one day... and... he sorta wrote about his trip in one of the books... and I uh... read it. It's not like it said private or anything. And I am the snoopiest damn person I know. Ugh. It gets a little annoying... but yeah.

Found out some stuff I probably shouldn't know.. haha... but knew anyway even before I read it. So whatever. I'm just that psychic. He went to Texas to see a girl. Not just any girl. The girl on his fridge. Yeah. Meh.

That's right, I'm so bored in my own life, that I read my brother's stuff. Whatever. He never tells me anything really... well that's not true... but... he doesn't really need to. Cuz we have like... ugh I dunno. It's a little bit creepy but we have like the same mind. Meh.

I was talking to Kevin last night, and he asked me if I wanted to go see Pirates again. I asked him if he rented the first one yet. :P He said no... so I'm thinking that I might just have to rent it, and take it over there and make him watch it. Yes, that's right... I think Coffee boy was just some little thing... Kevin sticks with me. :P I dunno. And he's really funny... in like the geekiest way ever, and I find it charming. :P I think... Meh. Whatever.

Sigh. Boys. I'm missing 90210, so I must end this. School sucked today cuz I'm not done my project yet, and it's due tomorrow... at the end of the day... but yeah. So much to do still. Ugh. Blah.

Meet Efrum...

So, here he is. Hehe. Yeah... he's holding a flower with a half smile on his face... as if to say... please give me a job. Or... ya know. Meh. So yeah... he looks sort of "indie" I guess... but whatever. He's so totally emo.

Anyway... today my teacher asked me if I was an illustrator at heart... and I said yeah, I guess. :P So anyway... he was like have you ever considered drawing comics? And I said I couldn't draw that much... meaning that I don't have the patience... heh... and he took it to mean I don't think I can draw. I think I can draw some things. Meh. Anyway, he was like that's not what I can see... they look interesting... you have characters. And I was like yeah... and he was like ever read Charlie Brown? And I said yes... and he was like that's not very good art, but it's the way it's presented. Okay, then... so you are saying I suck? What? Ahh. I wish he wouldn't try to talk to me while I'm busy... haha. :P
So yes. When I finish my stuff, I'm gonna upload it to my little site thing at tripod... and then you can see the wonderful animanation. :P It might only be up for a tiny period. But yeah. It'll be there... when I'm done. Maybe I'll link it. Meh.

And yeah... that's... about it. OMG! Wait. We started flash today... and I totally did some freaky ass flash... thing... ha. It was a good first attempt though. Considering I had basically no idea what I was doing... :) Ooo, I should put it on youtube. Yeah. Haha. :P

Oh! And I totally forgot how short I was until today... when it was brought up in class, and we were talking about a car's interface... ugh, I dunno. I was like... oh yeah... I am short. You bastards. :P

Listening to Bobby Darin at too fast a speed on a record player is so freakin' fun. :P

100th Post! All right!

So. Today.. I decided that I wanted Illustrator at home. I have fixed up my little creation so that he is the cutest dang thing ever. :P He's holding a flower and sorta grinning... yeah I dunno. He's probably not as cute as I remember. Meh. Whatever.

So I will totally post him tomorrow.

Just thought I would write down that since I have downloaded Illustrator... but have not installed it yet... because it's too freakin' huge, I don't have enough room on my computer. So tomorrow, big things ahead. Have to get rid of like... all my music I think. But first... which I will begin tonight... is burning all that music onto audio cds so that I can listen to them upstairs. Whee. So yeah. that might take a little while. But hopefully it'll clear enough room out so's I can play with Illustrator cuz it's freakin' awesome.

So yeah. Nothing else going on... no new developments... um... oh, well I talked to my three "best" friends today... we were all online at the same time... and we were like it's a sign! Ha. Yeah I dunno. Anyway... I'm going to go watch South Park, because... I've gotten into the habit of watching it every night because it entertains me. :) Tomorrow will be a cute post, I promise... I hope. Hehe. And yeah, I should see if my scanner works and scan in some doodles... cuz they usually turn out better than the actual pictures I try to do. Meh.

99th post! Ha.

All right, so I've decided that from now on, I'm not going to post anymore crap about boys, unless something is actually happening. Coincidentally my next post will be my 100th. Eee. Party time? Yeah. You know it!

So yeah. School was... sorta lame today. Did I already say that? My teacher wasn't there... he seems to be 'sick' every second Monday. My ass. And then the next day he's totally fine. Something's going on there... shall we conspiracize? Did I just make that word up? Quite possibly. Sweet.

I think he just might like 3 day weekends. Because really, who doesn't? Sigh.

But this whole Dave thing is totally ticking me off now... I dunno. I think he thought about it, and he was all, do I really like that crazy chick who kept lookin' around?... except I thought I was cute... or I hoped I was. Dang it, Katy! Stop talking about it! Ahhh! :P

Fine. This is the last post I will talk about it. :P

But... whine. I don't wanna come on too strong, and I'm scared if I say something like 'I wanna have your babies'... he might be scared away. Hahaha. :P I'm joking, I would never say anything like that. But I think I've made my point... maybe. Whatever.

I might start another journal to post all my random drawings and junk... maybe. I dunno. Might as well I guess. I love how no one I know in person knows about this journal... I can say anything. I love that. Hopefully... oh god. Well, I've never found anyone's journal that I know, so... I assume no one's found mine. Anyway...

Oh man. I had such a weird dream when I napped at 8 o'clock cuz I was dying...

I was drunk, and then I like hit my face on the concrete, and I was all, that didn't hurt like at all! Cuz I'm so drunk! And Mandy was there, and she was like katy, omg... and I felt my mouth... and it was like bleeding and apparently it had knocked two or three... or more of my teeth out. Ha. :P And then I woke up. And was really dizzy. Hmm. And it totally felt real... sorta. Cuz my mouth was hurting... and... ugh I dunno.

Cue the flying pig, because it's time for Katy to be happy, damn it.

How is it possible to be so excited one day and then totally blaaahhh the next. I don't get it.

How could he like.. send me an email being all thanks for the GREAT afternoon... and then... hardly talk to me today. Ugh. Why am I analyzing it so much? This is why I can never be happy. :P

I feel like I almost want to cry... just because. Hmm. He sucks. We all know it. He was just being polite. Or maybe we're just both tired today... because I know I am... and he said he was too. So maybe today just wasn't a good day to talk... hm. I have no clue. Blah. So yeah. Hooray to... no, this doesn't get a hooray. This gets a boo for crappiness.

I'm so... overdramatic.

And we all know the only time I'll get a chance at happiness is when pigs fly. Maybe not, but it seems like it.

I think we all got a leetle too excited yesterday.... heh. yeah. Sigh.

I dunno. I don't think he's really all that enamored with me, which I'm totally bummed about... I dunno. Msn does bring out the worst in people i find though... hmm.

Yeaaahhhh... I dunno. Whatever. I need to stop thinking about it all. Just let it... happen I guess. Blah. It won't happen the way I want it to, I know it. But oh well. Such is life. :) Bah.

Yaaar. Why does Kevin always pop up when I'm happy... go away. :P

Nah, I shouldn't say that... he's nice.

But. I... hmm. I want him to ignore me for a while. :P Let me have my moment of pure bliss. Hahaha. :P Someone may actually like me. That's never happened. Someone I find attractive. Wow. Guh... I feel bad... but not really. :)

Just now. Omg.

*katy's mouth still agape*

Hi,

Just wanted to send you an email thanking you for the great afternoon. I had fun, too bad it had to be cut short. Oh well, there's always next time. Hope to talk to you soon. :)


Ahhh. What a schweetheart. :P omg omg omg omg omg. Hahaha. Swoon. I'm getting ahead of myself... again. AHHHHHHHHHH. :D :D That was from "coffee guy" if you didn't notice. Oh fine, let's write down his name. Dave. Sigh. :P Shit man, this guy's good.

The "date". Except not a date.

Hahaha. First of all... it was not a date. I don't like calling things dates, so there ya go.

Second of all... it was awesome! I'm so in love. :P Haha.

We sat there for like almost 2 hours.. like whoa. I dunno if he actually heard most of the things I was saying... I didn't really hear some things he said, but it was fun. We both agreed it was fun...

:P :D I hope he phones again... and if not... well... I'll be a little disappointed. I think we actually had a lot in common. We talked about those super power movie things for a while... that was like... yeah. Awesome. Hehehe.

And the reason I didn't post til later, was cuz right before I left my friend who I have not seen in a year was like what are you doing today??! so I went over at 4. that's why we only talked for like 2 hours, cuz... I had somehwere else to be. But yeah. I had to stop off at bk and tell mandy how in love I am, but... I didn't really tell her, cuz Lindsay was there... and yeah. But yeah. Was worried for nothing. Meh. He's so fucking cute. And I was my usual awkward self, but he kept kinda laughing "at" me, cuz I kept lookin around... and then smiling... I dunno. Hopefully he thought I was cute. My god. I want him. :P I'm getting my hopes up. Whatever. It was fun.

And yeah. We talked about a lot of things... and like... I dunno. I'm so awkward. Yeah. He was doing most of the talking... I really should have forewarned him that I am shy... but I dunno. I saw him walk in.. and I was like... was that him. Yeah... it was. And then he like... sort of cautiously approached the table I was at... yeah. I dunno. I'm all giddy now... and I... yeah I dunno. I'd like to do it again, I think. He's pretty freakin' awesome.

I heart people who heart movies. Because I do too. Yeah.

So yeah.. he said it was fun... we parted ways without any touching of any kind.. hmm. I'm not usually a huggy kinda person so yeah. That was fine. But if he calls again, (please!) :P definitely go out again. Yeah. He's quite nice. And I will give him a hug. Because... yeah. I want him. As I said before. :P but not really... I dunno. I wanna hear more stories. Haha.

AND! He totally quoted Simpsons. OMG. That was the deal...maker. K. That's when I decided I would marry this boy if he asked me. Haha. :P It was pretty fuckin' sweet. So yes. Ah.. I dunno. I keep adding onto this post, I can't stop. I just... I'm glad I went. Of course, I wouldn't not go, cuz that woulda been so so rude... and yeah. Uh... indeed. K, that's it.

BLAH.

I'm meeting him in an hour. I'm seriously considering just not going. :P What's he gonna do? Never talk to me again? K. Big deal. BLAH.

Agh. My hair is horrible today... it's not a charming fluffy, it's a run for your life fluffy. Thick hair sucks sometimes... but whatever. And like... agh, I dunno. What the hell am I gonna say? I'm shy. Really. I wasn't really around Kevin, cuz he was too. If someone's super out there, I'm not gonna talk... heh. So... yeah. Oh god. Should I have made a list of questions? Shit... Haha.

Fine, I'll go. But only because I want an ice cap. I will bring my notebook. I will draw til he approaches me. I doubt he'll know who I am.

It'll be like that episode of Popular when Carmen and Sugar are talking online to each other, but they don't know it's them... and then they decide to meet and Carmen sees Sugar there, cuz he was there first, and she decides it's not a good idea. And then she confronts him. And they're all... mmm... awkward. Yeah. Except it'll be nothing like that.

Ha. I'm afraid there won't be any corners I can sit in. Sigh. What if he's there first? I don't want him to be. Blah. I hate looking lost in places, searching for people.

This bites. Watch it'll turn out all perfect and I'll have freaked out for nothing. Or it could be an absolutely horrifying experience. Hmm. Well. We shall see. I'm leaving in like half an hour... sigh. I'll make an excuse I have a lot of crap to do... I have to go buy dvd-rs and a nice pen. cuz I do. Ugh.

Oh, ranty.

I dunno. I'm a little nervous for coffee tomorrow, but I think I'm just... I dunno.

I talked to him tonight, and I was gonna be like well wth, why don't we just meet now... he actually brought that up, that we coulda just met tonight... meh. I prefer darkness, so I almost agreed... bah :P Anyway... I told him I'd most likely be sitting in a corner because corners are cool. And he comes back at me with a corners rule!... and in my head I was like... I think we'll get along just fine.

It's true though. I like being tucked away... I dunno. I'm weird like that. At school I picked the crappiest computer in the corner... also it was green.. so I was like ooo, pretty green. Ha. :P

And not to get ahead of myself or anything... but I don't know if I even want a relationship. I mean. I have a lot of issues... A LOT. Like how I can't swallow pills, and how I think drinking the tiniest bit of soap will somehow kill me... let's put it this way... I'm paranoid. It's fun.

And like... I think he might be looking for something... real. So I'm probably going to try to be as off-putting as I can. Ha. Won't be too hard. Meh...

And he was like "I have dark rimmed glasses and red streaks in my hair". And I was like... okay... hopefully we'll be able to figure who each other ... are/is. Ew grammar. And he was all LOL! And I was like ah... so... uh... I dunno. It'll be fine. I'll just go early-ish sorta, pick my own table, hopefully in a corner. And bring my notebook... to doodle in. Or a book... no I'll bring my bag. Yeah. Bags are good. Maybe I'll walk. Ooo, if it's nice out yeah. Like not too hot. cuz it's sorta close to my house. It's like right across from the bk I used to work at... I never used to walk to work though... mainly cuz I hated changing there, and... like... those uniforms are the goddamn ugliest things ever. Seriously. They were man pants... not cool. So they look so wrong... yeah. I'll probably drive.

I told wes I'm going to coffee, and he was all ooooo... yeah. Blah. That's why I shouldn't talk to people, because I get the urge to tell them stupid things, like what's going on. Meh.

Plus he's 22. but I'm almost 20. I think it's almost time to grow up... sort of. Or experience all the things that other grown ups do... yeah. I've lead a sheltered life.

I'm a good girl.

I've never really had an official boyfriend... it's been nice. :P Most of the time. Aside from the fact that I'm the only one of my friends who does not have anyone... so there's like... a bit of pressure there... it's dumb. But like... I hate my mother questioning me, so I don't do anything. If I lived on my own, I think I'd be a little crazier... and dumber.

I'll write about the thing tomorrow. Oh god. I feel almost as if I'm going for some kind of interview... I might throw up.

But... I've known Kevin for almost a year now. Isn't that crazy? Well... we started talking in like... man, i think it might have been July sometime of last year. Yeah it was. Cuz I went to my family reunion the long weekend in August, and had to check my email in the bus depot, cuz omg, he might have emailed me. Ha. And he did. :P He used to be such a good little emailer... what happened... bah.

EEeeee! Artsy productive evening. Whee!

Man, tonight was awesome. I hung out all by myself. I drew a picture, and made a stop motion video, which I should totally post here.. hmm... just a sec. Ha. I freakin' love it, even though you can see my hand, but I totally didn't think it through first.



Anyway... with the drawing, I sorta drew that kid again... I gave him a real name! His name is Emo Kid Efrum. Yeah. So he's like... gonna be like my mascot for a while. ha. I dunno. Meh. I fixed his feet so they don't look so dumb. So that's good... and... coloured him... somewhat. I dunno. Looks... okay. Meh. I'd scan him, but uh... he's still kinda crappy, and it needs major improvement. Meh.

So it was such a productive artsy night! It was awesome! I haven't felt artsy in a while... but I made this because I got a comment on my shitty ass stop motion video that I do know how it works, but that was kind of a waste... ha. But I was like omg, the guy who commented lives in Dublin! Ah! So I was all.. must impress. Haha. :P Anyway... so yeah. Twas a good night. And I may have to start work on "The Gathering" again, since I lost my first... notes... heh. It was awesome. It's gonna be the best thing you'll ever see, I swear. If I can pull it off. :P And if I finish writing it... or start writing it. :) I think Sunday's gonna be awkward... hm. Whatever. I can leave whenever I want. Ha. But seriously... like should I go a bit early and bring a book or something? Gah. cuz... I really doubt I'll recognize him... :P I don't think we really thought this through very well... meh. I'll stop thinking about it and just go with the flow I guess. Whee.

Heh. I almost can't wait til I turn 20... or 21... cuz then I can totally say I'm a girl in her twenties. Ha. Scary.

Terrifying actually. Oh dear me. I will have to get a real job soon! Ahhhh! I'm almost out of school! Noooooo! Ha. Well, I guess there's always classes and things I could take in the future... but hopefully I'll be happy with the field I've chosen...

Oh, I got 100 on my banner ads! YESS!

I rock.

I was drawing this in class today on the computer cuz I was bored. I actually drew him on paper yesterday, and I like the paper one better but whatever...

Anyway, Brin looked over and she was like... wow, are you gonna put that on your site? And I was like I dunno. I was just kinda bored... and she was like... *gasp* you should make him point to all the different parts of your resumé. and I was like yeah. To tell you the truth, I was actually thinking about that when I was drawing him, before she "gave" me the idea. So yeah. I just let her believe she came up with it even though we totally had a psychic connection there... ha. :P But yeah.

So we'll see how that goes. I think I made this guy... or a version of him up a while ago... after shawna died I think. Yeah. My soul is so tortured. :P... I call him emo kid. And I like him. :P Yeah... don't steal him! Or I will kick your ass! I swear.

red spray paint on white car = not fucking cool!

I'm so pissed. Still. Someone sprayed red paint on my car door last night. Why the fuck would you do that? Oh right. Because you're a little asshole! Fucking hell.

I was in the sourest mood all day, til I went to visit Amy and give her her grad present... but then I went to the bank, and people just can't drive.

I'm so so so pissed off. UGH. I just snapped at my mother on the phone... oh wait... crap maybe it's pms. Damn. But still. What the hell.

I barely did any of my work today because I was fantasizing about murdering the bastard who did that to my car.

Good thoughts.

But I guess at least they didn't egg it... but that would be easier to clean. So disregard that. FUCK.

I'm fuckin' mad.

I had to phone my mom from school, cuz I didn't notice it til i got there... i know, how's that possible? But I was like still sleeping... meh. My nickels wouldn't work in the payphone, so I had to ask this guy who was getting coffee. He was nice. I was gonna give him back a nickel but he was like that's okay. Heh. Um... so some people are nice. Others are just fucking... fuckheads. RAWWWWRRRRRRRRRR.

By the way my car is white... so it shows up really nice... i fucking hate today.

Blast! Blast it all to the eternal fiery depths of hell!

Kevin finally answered me on msn. And... I'm all giddy. Grr. He's just too freakin' charming on the computer... how is that possible, you ask? I dunno. It just is. He gave me an emoticon hug... he has never done that before... wth. I was like... wth. I did not return the emoticon hug, because i was too.. surprised? Yes... plus... I dunno.

So... I dunno what's up with everything. I'm pretty damn sure I like him, and it makes me super pissed. But whatever. I'm starting to feel bad about meeting coffee guy, but he'll probably just end up being a friend so what's wrong with that. nothing. :)

I hate this boy, but I love him all the same. Sigh.

"Late" night rant... again. Whee!

Wouldn't it be fucking awesome if you could make money just sitting around listening to every kind of music? Daymn.

Like seriously. If I had to take four years of school just to do that, you know I'd do it. Ha. Sigh.

Even if I could just listen to one kind of music... (techno!... er... electronica... cuz I need words... well I don't need words... but they're nice to.. listen to?... agh) or... actually anything but 50 cent or Nickelback I'd be all set. But no Nelly, or... um... okay no rap. Or Alicia Keys. She's a great singer, but they overplayed her first single and now I hate her. :P

Annnyyyway... I tried talking to what's-his-face on msn... I guess he's playing WoW or something nerdy like that. Hm. And by what's-his-face I mean Kevin... yeah.

I think mandy and I are hanging out tomorrow evening, and so we will be driving around, and perhaps drive by Kevin's house. Ha. Stalker time. Ohhh yeah. Except not really. Well kinda. Hm. Whatever. Wow this is like the third post... fourth? No... but whatever. I'm totally favoring this journal... ha. My LJ... I dunno... all my real friends know about that one, so like... I dunno. Can't write about crap like this cuz they'll be all man, katy's so dumb... meh. Hehe. Anyway...

Oh yeah. Coffee guy emailed me... and he's all how bout sunday at 2 in the afternoon... like I thought he meant morning.. geez. Yeah, I'm not that stupid. But I suppose he just wanted to be absolutely clear. Meh. Anyway... he made me pick where we're going. Yeah, good idea there buddy. Jerk. Ha. :P jk. I emailed him back, and I think I may have sounded like an ass... the way I wrote back. It might be a little condescending... hmm. Oh well. I'm sure he won't take it like that. Cuz it's not meant to be. He seems nice... but is he really? We shall see, we shall see. Blah.

Katy gets ahead of herself... career-wise.

So for our next project in school we're making interactive resumés... joy. Anyway.. we have to find places that are hiring in the new media field... and I found jobs in Vancouver and Boise, Idaho. Ha. How cool would it be to live in either of those places?? Man... live AND have a job.

I've never been to either place... I know, Vancouver's like the place to go in Canada... well.. I'm going there in October after I'm done school... with my mom... on the train. Whee.

But Boise! Idaho! I have no idea what's there, but the name fascinates me. :P

Just like Saskatoon, for some people... or Saskatchewan for that matter.

I do know that I don't want to stay here much longer. It's pretty and stuff... but I dunno. It's weird climate. So cold in the winter that you can't go outside... or you'll... well... freeze. And sometimes so hot you can't go outside, because you'll melt. It's like you're the popsicle, and you either get freezer-burn or melt away. Ha. Can popsicles get freezer-burned? Whatever... I'm nuts. I'm just... getting really excited to be... going out into the world I guess. I hope it works out... And there was also a graphic design position in Ireland, but they hadn't updated since 2005... so I figure they got someone. Plus I'd rather design websites any day. My skills still need a lot of work, but I think if I put the effort into it, and concentrate for once in my life, I'll be successful. Indeed. Um... I'm still in love with Ireland though, and AM going to get there one day. Sometime next year, hopefully.

I guess I should get back to work... blah. Resumés must die. And... stuff. And junk.

Listen with open ears...

So apparently... I'm the listener for most of my friends. I get it. They don't want to hear about my non-eventful life... just wanna talk about their own. Oh well. I'll be an enigma! Whee! Except to you... Jaimie. I'm going to assume you're the only one who reads this. Haha. :P Although I guess I don't put that much about myself in here... just what I... do...? Hm. Oookay. Really going to bed now. Agh.

Hooo, boy.

So, my friend Wes bought a car today. 1500. Wow. It's actually kinda nice, and yes, I am a little jealous.. hmm. But whatever. "My" car could kick his car's ass anyday... unless it was a race of who can choose from more cds... in their car... cuz I don't have a cd player... (tapes are the only way to go... yeah...) and his car has a 10 cd... changer. Thing. Yeah. Cool. Anyway...

We went cruising around (sorta) and we brought my Aqua cd... haha. He's awesome cuz he has such crappy taste in music... :P Actually it's sorta like mine, but not as broad. Or worldly. :P Anyway... we knew all the words to every song... it was a good time. Yeah.

It's fun being crazy... indeed... but I already knew that. I dance in my car all the time. When I'm not screaming at horrible drivers for being so stupid. Yeah. :) I'm a happy person in general. Haha. Not.

It's funny, I haven't told any of my friends about "coffee guy". You'd think I would have... and I will probably tell Mandy when I see her on Thursday, not that there's much to tell... I dunno. I just... if nothing comes of it, why bother? Like I told them all about Kevin, and they totally forgot about it within I dunno... a minute. Haha. Not that it should matter to them. I dunno. But one time we were all talking and they were like, didn't someone used to go out with a Kevin? And I was gonna say something, but I was all no, it's not worth it. Because we never really did go out. Ha. But we might! For some reason I'm still clinging to some little... sort of... thread... thing. I don't know. I was thinking the other night, what would he say if I asked him to marry me. Haha. Of course I wouldn't want to get married... to anyone. Right now (or ever - not nuts...). That's nuts. I need to finish school, and get myself established. Duh. But it was an entertaining thought. Haha. Sort of. Not really... but whatever. I have new prospects... I guess. I hope "coffee guy" doesn't think I'm... dumb. Or something. He probably will... I give off the impression that I'm "special"... it's kinda funny. But sad. Because I'm normal in the sense that I... am somewhat intelligent and can hold a conversation... I just... don't feel like doing that too often. Too long! Ah! Ramblings before bed... always a good thing. Delete this tomorrow, Katy! Or not... ya know, whatever. G'night!

Aqua, cars and updates. Not that I need to.

I watched Pumpkin again today. Fine, I didn't. I took that back on Saturday... yeah. Sigh. :P

I was hit by a giant truck.

Well.. fine, I wasn't, but I do seem to listen to a lot of Aqua... lately... and I did almost get hit by a car this morning. The dumb driver wasn't watching... and I was like this close to stepping off the curb before she stopped, and so I of course rolled my eyes and called her a fucking retard... more talking to myself, than actually looking at her...

But what if she had hit me? Would I have been able to get up? If so, would I have kicked in the hood of her car? I hope so. Ha. She would have deserved it. I hate summer. It makes people more crazy than they already are.

Omg, a scheduled outage at 4? Ooo. Crazy. Blogger, you're my life. :P Sad, I know.

We got to play around in Sound Edit 16 today. Heh. Doesn't really matter what it's called, just that you can edit audio in it. Used to do that on the old computer with Sound Forge... they're like the same thing. Anyway... started making the coolest song in the world, that starts off with "Tell Me About Your Childhood". Heh. I may like it so much cuz I heard it in another song... Oh well. But then I got kind bored of it, and just listened to Aqua for the last 15 minutes of class... yeah... I need to get a different cd for tomorrow.

Haha... Awww...

I love this guy. He actually like... emails me. Wow. What a novel concept, I know. Yeesh... :P (kevin sucks. I saw him on msn earlier... and did he answer my email? Of course not. Whatever...)From coffee guy:

Hi,

Sorry for not calling you over the weekend, I ended up getting really busy and stuff, and I feel really bad for not calling. Sorry. So I was just wondering if maybe you wanted to meet up for coffee this weekend. I work overtime again on Friday, probably till 5pm, so any time after that is good. Saturday I'm off to Moose Jaw with some buddies, and Sunday is wide open. Email me back :)

Hehe. Aw.

Eeeeee. :P I don't think anyone's ever been that apologetic to me. Heh. I like this guy... ;)

I can't stop giggling... :P I'm such a dork. Oh well.

Hotness

It is hot outside.

I bought the Coheed and Cambria cd because I am waaaay too in love with that song. The Suffering. I had to listen to it like 5 times before I went to bed last night... yeah.

For the last hour of school, we had class outside... and it was funny cuz I started laughing a lot... and my teacher was like, katy are you okay? And I was like yeah, I'm fine... just giddy... cuz of the heat. I dunno. I also had to pee. Meh?

So yeah. After school, I walked with Pete across the bridge and he was like so heat makes you giddy? And I was like... well... I dunno. It's just Brin put her hand in the (dried) bird poop on the bench, and I thought it was the funniest damn thing ever. I dunno... and then we talked about birds.

Brin's really funny. Funny, funny girl. Heh.

And I'm no good in heat.

Oh yeah, we're learning about digital audio now... I love sound. And music. And some noise. So it's really interesting... even though I think I learned some of it in physics... yeah.

Oh, physics. Ha. Good times...........

No power.

That was my Friday... for an hour and forty minutes... yeah.

My brother pointed out later on, that I could have played my DS... but I usually play that with the tv on in the background. :P Plus Mario's kind of boring now, since I beat it... meh. I dunno.

It took forever to compress the video down, it's the longest one I've ever done without speeding up. :P Haha.

Anyway. Today I finally decided I should recycle my water bottle... which originally had Dasani water in it... it was old. Trust me. I'm embarrassed to say just how old it was. Yeah. Well... my head kinda hurts, so maybe I should get off the computer... meh. Cya.

I don't... know.

I watched Pumpkin yet again today... haha. Not all of it though. Just like... the first hour. Because after that's when it starts to skip harshly, and I was all yeah, not going through that again, I know what happens. Anyway... my favourite part of that whole movie is when she's all really upset, because everyone's blaming her for everything wrong... and she's walking along campus and the three Tri Omega girls come up to her and start raggin' on her... and she's all: "If you three bitches come near me again, I'll rip your fucking heads off!" And then walks away. Oh god. Hilarious. And awesome. Indeed. Anyway...

I did absolutely nothing today... really... of value... except I alphabetized my movies... hmm. I was bored... methinks. Anyway... I figured out where all my money went... heh... movies. Yeah... I have 87 of them.... uh...I dunno.

And that's not counting seasons of things. And all those movies are just of my dvds... of which none are scratched or smudged, I might add. It's really not that difficult to not fuck a dvd up. Yeesh. Don't know why so many people who rent seem to have issues with that. Whatever...

Man. As soon as I finish editing and load my new "movie" onto you tube I'll post it here, cuz it's about yesterday and what a sad life I lead... I documented the power outage. Ha. I was going crazy.... :P

I was thinking about "driving" by Kevin's place tonight... but... I dunno. It feels a little stalkerish... I just wanna see it, that's all. And maybe the inside too, but I suppose I should wait til he emails me back... hmm, I believe I emailed him on the second. Yeah. A week... hm. Whatever... I dunno. The more I think about it, the more I'm starting to realize that... I might like Kevin more than I thought I did...? Or something. Maybe I'm just nervous about meeting coffee guy, who might phone tomorrow, and I'm not sure I wanna go. But I guess I will if he does call, cuz really... what else do I do? Nothing. And he seems really nice... in a "I'm 21 and more mature than you" way... I dunno. Cuz I've already met Kevin... and he knows what I'm like, and I don't like introducing myself to new people often... I'm so shy. Ahh. Whatever... not getting my hopes up that he actually will call, cuz I'm pretty sure I was an asshole last weekend... meh. oh well. That's life.

Except I don't think I really want anything right now. I don't know why I lead all these people on. It's fun. I guess. Heh... :P

I watched Pumpkin again, for about the billionth time.

I always get it from the video store (because I swear, no one sells it... sigh) and it's all scratched up, dvds... why did they stop making vhs??! Urgh. But whatever... So I get all frustrated everytime I watch stuff from the video store... but I rented it for free. So that's good.

It's a great movie, and that's why I keep renting it all the time... well not all the time... only when I can get movies for free, that's what I get... because I know it's all scratched. :P But yeah, what was my point again? Hmm.

Oh right, I watch it cuz I'm in love with Hank Harris. :P Sort of... meh. And I heart Christina Ricci... cuz she was in Casper, and I freakin love that movie! Ahh.

"You know that tingly feeling when your foot falls asleep? I think I'm made of that."

:D *swoon* :P

oh. right...

It's funny. I read everyone else's blogs, and forget to update my own... oh well.

So... I did my little website thinger... it actually turned out to be like a music blog. Which is cool. And in my search for other sites that I could "place my banner ads on"... I found the most amazing sites ever. On music.

audiofordrinking is awesome. And I find it when he stops writing in it! Dang! Oh well... I could spend hours browsing the archives... good stuff.

asterisk is awesome...
hope that works... but if you launch the player, and find the featured song... omg, I was like wow. It doesn't seem so great anymore, cuz I listened the hell out of it... :P But at lunch, I went to the mall and looked for that cd, is how much I liked that song. Of course I still like it... of course. Right? Sure.

I dunno. I think I'm ... I'm totally blanking on the word I want. Damn it. Whatever.

Got out early, cuz I finished again... and was just listening to awesome songs on that first site. Yeah...

I used to think myself as a wanna-be movie geek. I'm turning into a music freak though. But I know like nothing about it... I wanna know stuff though. Meh.

They have the cd I want(ed) at Futureshop, but since it's hot out, and it's a bit of a drive, I don't want it anymore.. Ha. Blah.

But yeah... I almost bought the Nick Drake cd I don't have, but... I dunno. Meh? I only need one more... and the other one's just his best of... don't need that. His voice is haunting though... it makes my heart like melt or something. I don't know. My knees get weak when it starts playing. Ha. :P Like Gordon Lightfoot. Eeee, October! He's coming in October! Hooray...

Omg, I'm almost 20. :P

And I want to move out soon... ish. Soon after my 20th I think. Need a job... BLAH. You know how I feel about working... :P jk. No one on my msn talks to me anymore... I should just stop using it. Okay. I will do that. Good. Good.

No new news on... any front other than school. :P ...blah.

Say wha?

Okay. So I think I may have mentioned this other guy that I thought maybe kinda might have a chance of liking me in the slightest... he phoned me today. Yeah, I gave him my number... what the hell. Kevin doesn't even have my number... maybe that's why he's so hard to keep in touch with. But whatever.

He asked me for coffee today, and I was like uh, I actually have a lot of laundry to do... which is true, but I don't really plan on doing it all day. So I told him I'd be busy with that... don't think he really believed me... but whatever. Heh.

What's with today? Geez. I have no idea why I put myself out there in the first place. I don't really want anything... I wanna finish school and then maybe (hopefully) find someone.

Although this guy that phoned has the NICEST voice I've heard in a while... not a snotty voice at all... Kevin's is kind of a higher than thou sounding voice... pretty nerdish... meh. I dunno. Whatever. I told him to phone me later in the week, and we could get some coffee or something... well I didn't say those words exactly. He was like, well I'll give you a call some other time then... if you want me to. And I was like yeah, definitely. Should have apologized for being so "busy". Dang. Probably thinks I'm a jerk.

So I guess Pete was just a one day "obsession"... But when I see him tomorrow, I'm sure I'll be like oh man. I want you. :P Whatever.

The reason I told him I was busy is because I do have laundry to do, but I'm so totally self-conscious... like all the time. Especially today. Cuz I have no clean nice clothes. :P Blah. So.. yeah. I think July's gonna be good... I hope. :) :P

Slightly Annoyed...

Kevin finallly answered my email. And I'm pissed. Because he made himself slightly charming again. And seems like he... almost maybe kinda likes me.

Now. I had a discussion with my friend Mandy last night, while we were drinking at her boyfriend's house (yeah, I slept on the couch... *thumbs up*) and I told her he hadn't emailed me back yet. And she was like you should email him again. And I was all no. And then I said... Mandy... *slightly almost drunk*... he wears socks with sandals. And she stared at me, and was like Katy, you can't marry that boy. And I was like OH GOD. I would never...

So I get home this morning, check my email... in my junkmail there's one from Kevin. Wonderful...

Read it. And I almost started crying... what the hell. He's just so goddamn nice. UGH. Not that that's a bad thing, but it tends to fuck with my head...

In the email that I wrote him before, I was like so where is the neighbourhood you live now, because he told me he had found a place... and so he google mapped it, and emailed it to me. From my house to his. Creepy? I LOVE IT. OH GOD.

He's just as creepy as me! I can't believe it! Hahaha.

But like... he remembers my house... where I live. And he was like, if the curling rock in front of your house should ever disappear, there would be chaos. And I was like... k.

I dunno. Agh. So... I suppose I should email him back. Turned out he was back home for like a week, moving stuff to his new house. Hm. I can't help but be slightly intrigued by him... I just... I don't know. I just... yeah, nevermind. Way to start my day... jerk. :P