RIP Rachael...

Yesterday was the worst day I've had in a while. I didn't go to psych in the morning 'cause I have a cold and just... didn't feel like goin. :P Then I had a dentist appointment which wasn't so bad... my wisdom teeth are slowly poking their way through... kind of. But yeah. Later when Jordan got home he informed me that Heath Ledger died. I thought he was lying. :P Sadly, he was not. So I was like... kind of in shock... I thought that was bad, but an hour later after I sat down in my english class... I noticed dad had phoned my cell phone. He left me a message.

My cousin Rachael died on Sunday. I'm very upset about this. Somehow I managed to sit three hours through my night class without getting too upset. I did cry at first, but then I was okay. But yeah... I phoned my dad today while we were both at work from my car and I started crying... she was 27. She had been sick for a long time, but no one ever really told me just how sick she was. Her funeral's tomorrow and I can't go because I have class and work and I feel terrible about it. But dad said that there will be something in the summer for us cousins... we have a lot of cousins. :P But I'm glad that she's not suffering anymore and she's (maybe... still not sure if I believe, but I need to believe in something) finally with her brother again. I miss them both. And I want to comfort my aunt and uncle, but I dunno what to do. Dad's going to her funeral tomorrow. It's in Edmonton, so he and Monica are leaving tonight. It's just... no fun when you get that kind of news, you know? Especially when she was like the nicest person in the world. And still really young... of course, this made me think about Shawna, but... she can't have all my tears anymore I guess. Though I did have a dream about her on the weekend and we were talking like nothing ever happened... well... she was still dead, just visiting me. It was kinda neat... and weird. Anyway, sorry I haven't update in a while. I'll try to do that more. Yeaaaaaaahhhhhh.