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I heard of a new band today and I love the one song I've heard! I heard it twice today on Alt Nation (xm radio) - once on my way to work and once on mah way home. It was awesome. And now I'm listening to it. It's called Smokers Outside the Hospital Doors by Editors. I love his voice. Wow. Yeah... I love satellite radio... mmmm.

I have two gerbers growing! I feared my plant was dead and there was no hope left, but like 3 days ago two buds popped up and now they're blooming! YAY! I've had that plant for almost a year now... it's almost died so many times... but I'm glad it's still alive. And my roses from December are still kind of red... they're definitely dying though.. of course...

Anyway. I'm doing pretty good. Seeing a counsellor... she's really nice, although I told her I want to talk about Shawna more... which kind of scares me cuz I don't really know what to say about it other than it makes me really, really sad and I just want to collapse when I think about it. But yeah... she says people grieve differently and even though it's been four years, I might grieve for the rest of my life... in little spurts .... ebbs and flows.

Also, there's this other song I'm really digging right now. In This City by Iglu & Hartly. It's groovetastic. Yeah.

I have to get my tax stuff together... sigh. Living without mom sucks, cuz I have to keep everything and then dig it up again. I've gotten messy... messier than usual over the past year... possibly the depression? I don't know. Or I'm just lazy... probably just laziness.



But yeah. Anyway... work is actually going okay. I'm liking it again at least. So that's good. Anyway... those two songs I mentioned... awesome. They're totally my taste in music. Obviously. I have to go shower and go to bed now. Sigh.


Those gerbers make me happy! They're pink... and pretty. And blooming! I'm excited. K, shut up. Go shower.