Haus.

Buying a house is such a huge fucking commitment. I really hope this is what I want. We don't have the money yet, but I know that I love him and I know I want kids with him... so... yeah, I'm pretty fucking sure it is what I want. Of course, I don't want kids 'til I'm done school and I hope it works out that way. :P

I'm just always scared that ... well, that he'll start to hate me. I don't know why he would, because I'm awesome... but like, I think I don't take certain things seriously enough for him. I don't know.

I love him.

I do.

life.

We've been looking at houses. The past two weekends.

I only loved one. It's still for sale.

Mom and I are going to see about mortgages Tuesday.

I hope it's still for sale then, cuz we're totally going to put an offer on it, even though mom's not too keen on it. Mostly cuz of the tree roots that cause issues with water pipes or something. Meh? It's beautiful though.

Jordan really liked the one we saw today.

I was snoopy and noticed it belongs to my old burger king boss. :P I laughed and was very scared. Because... I don't want to know what she lives like. But yeah. Needless to say, I didn't like it. Not just because of that fact - because that shouldn't matter - but I thought it was just... I don't know. The rooms were all too small and it was set up weird. We saw one yesterday that was also set up weird. Like crappy weird. No living room. It sucked. :P But yeah, so that's what's up. Also, I failed my bio midterm, but passed anthro and psych. Nice. With you know... marks in the 60s. Not bad. Not good, but not bad. :P

midterm rant.

I finally found my new poppy sappy song for the next few months. :P

Best Days by Matt White.

Yep. I can't seem to stop listening to it. Whatever.

I wrote my last midterm tonight.

My brain hurts so much. Is it possible I haven't had to know so much in such a long time that it's painful to remember things now? :P

It's probably just dehydration. I really do need to drink more water.

All my midterms sucked, I have no idea if I passed any of them.

Eek.

But I really don't care. I had so much fun in Edmonton, I want to live there. I'm sure I could find a graphic design job there... a good one... the wouldn't hire me for just two weeks and then be like, k, you're done. Jerks.

Well... I'm not sure, but I'd have a way better chance of finding one. Who needs more education? BLAH.

...I've been sort of depressed as of late. I'm assuming because of midterms. But there's been a couple weird incidents at school... notes of a threatening nature being left around. Well, two. Lately I've just been hoping something would actually happen so I don't have to go.

That is so terrible, and I feel awful about it, but really... university sucks. School sucks. I should just go to bed now since I'm not watching Criminal Minds anymore because Mandy Patinkin is no longer in it. Sigh. :P

Pushing Daisies is so awesome. I watched that tonight. Gawd, I love that show. :) Hehe.

Well... you know...

I should just go to bed now. Or read some more harry potter. Nope, I'm still not done it. :P I suck. Or I could start reading for my next essay... but... meh. I hate all my classes. Indeed I do.



Every time I look at you, you always look so beautiful.

Writing that lyric made me want to listen to Every time by Britney Spears. I used to listen to that with mandy while we drove around and I'd replace baby with pecan. Cuz that's what I called her for some reason. I thought it was funny, I guess. Cuz it was/is. Yeah.

Mandy asked me to make a shadow box of her wedding, which is apparently occurring in late summer of '09. I said of course. :)... cuz she commented me before she asked... something like, since you're so awesome and all, and good at crafts and things...

haha. She's great. And going to help me with bio tomorrow. Bless her! I don't get it... I get it a bit, but not enough. You know? Yeah, you know.

birthday weekend so far...

So my birthday was yesterday. Yeah, I'm 21 now. CRAZY! :p

Anyway... en route to Edmonton, Jordan hands me my birthday card. Aww.

I cried while I was reading it. I cried for a while after too... happy tears... not sad. It was the sweetest card I've ever received... the first card I've gotten from a boyfriend. :P So I cried. He really does love me a lot. It's so nice. Because I love him just as much.

We tell each other we love one another all the time, but it's just... I dunno, when I read the card and he wrote it at the bottom... it just meant a whole lot more, you know? I guess he probably needs that once in a while too. I didn't get him a bday card... oh well.

But yeah. He also gave me 3 DS games... :P... and... x-files season 2 and he bought me Zodiac today. Yay. :P

I have midterms this week. Ha. I picked the most perfect weekend to go away. Oh well. We went shopping a lot today and it was really fun.

I'm totally addicted to Swiss Chalet now which is a shame because there are NONE in Saskatchewan. Yeah. I know. They put crack in that chalet sauce, I swear!

Anyway, I think I might get ready for bed now... it's been a long day. Edmonton is fun. Hehe. We`re leaving tomorrow though... bah. So yeah... g'night.