Plus I was afraid that I would punch her in the face... and then get my ass kicked. :P I was like... fucking shaking with rage. It was scary. I have issues. :) And I'm trying to get rid of them through my schoolwork... being creative and shit. Yeah. Whatever. It's not working. Clearly.

At least my heart doesn't feel that broken (To tell you the truth, I just wanted to be that kid's friend... but not anymore.) ... like when Shawna died... and I had to go to work the next day... my heart. Was. Broken. There was nothing there. And I can't believe I fall for these people's tricks... she just wanted me to go, so she could look better by comparison. Why else? Yeah, I'm ugly. I get that. I'm trying to work on it though. Ugh.

I have such a high self confidence... I'm awesome.

I really hope she doesn't try to phone me tomorrow. Cuz I'm afraid I'll flip out... and hang up. Or just hang up. Hm. Either one would work I guess. Times like these I wish I had caller ID. Gr.

Oh yeah. And... I'm pretty sure he called me fat. I should have kicked his fucking ass right then and there. Fucking jerk. WHY AM I SO ANGRY? AHHHH. It's annoying...

Idiocy.

Fuck you. Directed at everyone who doesn't like me... or treats me like crap in some way or another.

You know what's not fun? Being invited on a double date when you're the fifth wheel. Fuck that shit. Needless to say, when the movie was done, I asked to go home. Pretended I was super beat. But really, I just didn't want to spend the evening with an asshole, who doesn't tell my ANYTHING. Fuck you mandy. I can't believe you.

You could have at least warned me you guys were... "going out". Or starting to. Whatever. I would have liked a warning so I could have avoided the situation entirely. I hate you so much right now. And if you don't start telling me what's up... I'm scared that I won't be able to talk to you anymore. For quite some time. And fuck you.... "I love you so much Katy... you mean so much to me... I thought about you today..." WTH. She only said that because Ian likes her and she didn't want me to get mad at her... when she should have just come right out and told me. So yeah.

Fuck both of you. Oh yeah... plus. I really didn't wanna hear them fucking tonight. That would have just killed me. So yeah. what a good day, hey?

FUCK OFFFFFFFFF.

For like 3 weeks. We'll see how I feel then... ugh. I really hate her. Why can't she just talk to me about it? I really don't care... it's just that... she didn't tell me. She doesn't tell me a goddamn thing. And I don't know why! BLAH.

Love ya Chelsi. If you read this. :P That was fun...

RACCOONS!

I bought it. I FOUND IT! Haha.

"This is the Evergreen Forest. Quiet. Peaceful. Serene. That is... until Bert Raccoon wakes up! ........ Luckily he has friends to help him out. Life would be simple in the forest, except(or if it weren't... I dunno) for... Cyril Sneer. And his life would be simple except for... THE RACCOONS!"

Oh yes kiddies. I remembered all of it. Haha. I rock. And so does that show.

Maybe my flyer thing will show up... if it doesn't... it looks pretty okay. Just really cluttered, so I need to fix that. Bye.

The puddles are kicking my ass.

The snow is melting. Which means puddles. Lots of them. Anyway... I was trying to avoid them on my walk home... I did not succeed. I did for a little while... and then there were just too many! And then it happened. I stepped in a puddle that pretty much soaked my whole foot. So I was like... fine. Fuck it. And I just walked through all the puddles from then on. I was almost home anyway. My foot was very heavy cuz it was soaked. Yeah. Good times...

So like. In April, "some" of us are being set up for practicums. So there's a chance some people won't get some. Obviously. Those who don't qualify. I'm most likely one of those people. Basically because the teachers pick who... and Fred hates me. So yeah. I'm not gonna let it bother me though. I don't think I want to do this for real life anyway... I just wanted this as a starting point? haha. Oh that's bad. Means I need to save money for more school. But I'm so taking a year off. Cuz yeah. I didn't get a year off. Bah. Or I could just design stuff for family... and then branch out after that. But they'd have to pay me... I need to make a living too. Heh. This ain't no freeby shit. Blah.

I've been so pissy today. Ugh.

I hate things.

So...

I emailed Kevin that other day. And he emailed me back about half an hour ago. He's obviously still alive. Heh. But of course he like emails back the day that I'm like.. hmm... well I logged into Cupid yesterday.. haha... and someone sent me something so I was like ooo. Yay. :P But anyway. I dunno. I'm so wanted. Haha. Or not at all... I just wish I were. Meh. I asked for the shirts, but then I was like, I'm jk... which I shouldn't have done. Goddamnit. He's just not gettin' it is he? :P They're really cool... one says: "I'm blogging this." I thought it was cute... and very me. :P Well... used to... no yeah. And the other says: "Obey Gravity! It's the Law!" I laughed so hard when I saw that... I was all... I want that... and he said he'd get it for me... ahem. :P I should be grateful, which I am. But I also want them... like soon. sigh.

I found a bunch of dumb cds in the basement, that looked like they weren't written on... but they were. So I made a list of what's on them, and added them to my collection. Silly Chris. He just lost 2 cds. Not very good ones, but whatever. They're okay.

So I'm going to Regina tomorrow evening with Wesley. We're gonna visit Mandy, stay over night and then it's off to Wes' grandma's house. Haha. WOO. Hopefully she doesn't remember that I was the one who didn't help. THERE WAS NO ROOM TO SIT! Grr.

But whatever. So yeah. I'm stocking up on a lot of music. Heh. Computer! I won't see you for so long! 2 days! AHHHHHH. Well.. like a day more like it. Saturday. *shudder* Haha. Cya.

Brothers!

Okay. So the movie Rent. I didn't really like... cuz I didn't get it. thought it was kinda pointless... basically no plot except a bunch of "bohemians" getting mad at landlord guy. Whatever. But the song "La Vie Boheme"... I love for some reason. It's hilarious. I already know the words. Oh yes. I'm ashamed. I have a dance too. :P For one part. It's the thing he does when he's dancing on the table and he's like "going against the grain... etc." HILARIOUS. But yeah. Movie sucked. :P And I hated Maureen. Couldn't stand her. Goddamn. Yeah. She pissed me off. But anyway.

Usually, musicals and I don't get along. But I like the songs. The plots never make sense. :P

And I was thinking after I saw it... that Law and Order should have a musical episode. I'd totally watch that. Not that I don't watch the other episodes. I love Law and Order. PEACE.

What you thinkin anyway?

Haha. I love Rufus Wainwright. I rediscovered him today, along with simple plan and other things. :P

"Just give me sex wheeenever I want it, cuz all I ask for is instant pleasure..."

Heh. His songs are good. And junk. Indeed...

Hmm. what else to say. Oh, talking to my cousin, says he wants a tattoo, and he might be getting it tonight. Cool. I told him I want a picture. So yeah. I'm updating this wayyyy too much. Oh well. Cya.

AHHH

Haha. Today is a momentous occasion. Curt is online! Ahhhh. I haven't talked to him for over a year... cuz... he got a life somewhere or something. He doesn't remember me, but I remember him! Haha. :P He was so awesome way back when... he didn't look like this way back when though. He used to have a shaved head.
http://www.jmu.edu/bethechange/dvonch.shtml GOOD LORD! :P Don't go stalk him or anything... AH. Hahahahaha. Oh giggle. :P I can't look at that picture anymore... he's too awesome. :P We used to do like trivia together when msn had chat rooms. That was fun. We kicked ass. Ah, memories. Okay. Well.. that's all I wanted to say.

Love and t-shirts.

When I was watching Thumbelina one day... my mother came in and asked me why I like that movie so much. I said I didn't know.

I know. I want that. I want someone to sing to me and tell me to let them be my wings. :P

There was one person. Kevin. But I haven't talked to him in like a month. We went out like 3(?) times. All to movies. Let's see. Batman Begins... yep three. Longest yard and serenity. Yep. Cool. But the thing is... he got me shirts for my bday... and he got them like a month ago from the site... but he still hasn't... given them to me? I know his birthday's coming up sometime soon... so perhaps I should email him? I dunno. But we take turns emailing basically. We have this one going from like... I dunno. While ago. I sent the last one, I'm sure of it. But I guess if I want those shirts... :P Haha. I'm kidding. He's pretty cool. In the geekiest way ever. But still awesome.

I never gave him my phone number. :P Haha. Maybe I should be nicer? Maybe. But I didn't wanna be all... I LOVE YOU LET'S DO IT. Cuz I dunno if I like him anymore. I'm worried that he found someone else. Is that wrong? WERE WE GOING OUT IN THE FIRST PLACE? Probably not. I think we were just like movie buddies. But no good movies have been coming out. So that's why we stopped I guess. Meh. Yeah, I should email him sometime. Like tomorrow... or the next day. But soonish. Fuck, I want those shirts. :P I'm such a greedy jerk. OH well. Yay katy! Baha.

Bah.

I can't figure out how to delete posts on here. So whatever.

I watched the last episode of Popular yesterday (finally), and it ended so... annoyingly. And that was the last episode ever. Goddamn. :P Oh well. I didn't really care that much, cuz I was kinda over it... but still.

TODAY:

Work on that fucking brochure, and Katy, if you blow it off, I will stick pins in your eyes.
That's about it... and do laundry. Bah.

Stop posting things twice. Jerk.

Scrubs/ Happy St Patrick's Day! Woo!

My love for Scrubs has returned! Not that I ever stopped liking it... I just didn't know when it was on anymore. Season 2 has been sitting in the living room for quite some time... it's Chris'... but when I saw 2 new episodes the other night... I was like. My god. I LOVE IT! Heh. So yeah... Sigh. So that's what I'm watching now... I have one more episode of Popular to watch. The last one. I don't think I want it to end, which is why I started Scrubs before I finished Popular... hmm. Peculiar. Anyway.

THIS SONG IS SO GOOD! Overkill by Colin Hay. *faints* :P

So yes. Tonight, I'm not going out. Mainly because I have no one to go with. But whatever. I don't need people. I have movies. Deliverance was on last night, so I taped it... I watched the beginning part... and that kid with the banjo... it woulda been so much better if he had kicked that guitar guy in the face when he came over to him. But yeah. So I'm gonna watch that. And then I'm gonna watch American History X again... cuz I have to take it back tomorrow. Boo. AND THEN. I dunno... Probably watch Harry Potter... the new one? I've seen it... but haven't watched it on dvd yet. Meh. I bought it though... yeah. Well anyway. Another episode of Unsolved Mysteries is creeping up fast. Cya.

Scrubs/ Happy St Patrick's Day! Woo!

My love for Scrubs has returned! Not that I ever stopped liking it... I just didn't know when it was on anymore. Season 2 has been sitting in the living room for quite some time... it's Chris'... but when I saw 2 new episodes the other night... I was like. My god. I LOVE IT! Heh. So yeah... Sigh. So that's what I'm watching now... I have one more episode of Popular to watch. The last one. I don't think I want it to end, which is why I started Scrubs before I finished Popular... hmm. Peculiar. Anyway.

THIS SONG IS SO GOOD! Overkill by Colin Hay. *faints* :P

So yes. Tonight, I'm not going out. Mainly because I have no one to go with. But whatever. I don't need people. I have movies. Deliverance was on last night, so I taped it... I watched the beginning part... and that kid with the banjo... it woulda been so much better if he had kicked that guitar guy in the face when he came over to him. But yeah. So I'm gonna watch that. And then I'm gonna watch American History X again... cuz I have to take it back tomorrow. Boo. AND THEN. I dunno... Probably watch Harry Potter... the new one? I've seen it... but haven't watched it on dvd yet. Meh. I bought it though... yeah. Well anyway. Another episode of Unsolved Mysteries is creeping up fast. Cya.

Beh?

Hmm. So... that one test I studied for. I got 100. Woo. Heh.

I'm such a loner freak. It's fun... but not really. Oh well. I prefer to be by myself. Indeed. Just keep telling myself that...

I might be dying my hair this weekend. Mandy is supposed to do it. So we'll see if it actually happens. did I already say that one day? Heh. Think I did. Oh well. I watched some thing on Press Your Luck... it was about Micheal Landers: The man who beat the Press Your Luck system'. Haha. I made that title up, but that's what it should have been. EXcept it was just him beating it. He memorized the pattern of the light thing... took him six months. Ha. Ended up getting the money after producers were like... waah. Yeah I dunno. I thought it was interesting. Unsolved Mysteries is on now. Bye.

I feel like reading about another mass murder... the Shell Lake Massacre was really interesting... I read that how long ago though?... man. Get back on that. First I have to finish the one about Dian Fossey. Sigh. It's taking waaaaaaay longer than expected. Haha. :P Cya.

I don't know.

Maybe he doesn't really like her. Maybe he'd just rather have her than me. But she has a boyfriend... why she needs to flirt with the one I'm "infatuated" with... I don't know. hahaha. I'm so fucking pathetic though. Seriously. Maybe make herself feel better... whatever.

I so don't care anymore. I'm over it. I just... can't be around both of them at the same time anymore.

I still remember at bk... when tony gave me a float... and he was like... here you go... like handing it to me like a little boy or something. It was so cute. Heh.

But who am I kidding? I guess I just need to become some kind of selfish bitch in order to get people to like me.

But I'm way too responsible for that. I really wanted to die last night... but knew I had to pick my mom up from the airport. And I had to take care of Casey until she got back. So like... yeah. I don't like my mom to worry about me. I respect her too much to do that, I guess. I've snuck around a few times... but I just... can't do that anymore. Of course though, I'm not going to tell her that I didn't go to school today.

I drank a beer really fast last night, and then threw up. Half an hour later. Life is really just... being the hugest bitch. I was sad, because of the night's events, and I really needed a drink... so I had one. Cuz no one gave one to me. so whatever. I know what I want. When it doesn't involve other people... so I can just go get it. Yeah. I dunno what I'm saying. All I know, is that my head is really screwed up, and I'd like my mom here to anchor it. Keep me in line. :P Sigh. I miss a lot of people. But I want to cut them out again, cuz all people tend to do is hurt me. WHEE.

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as strong willed and stubborn. Overall, your true self is passive and thoughtful. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem energetic - almost manic. In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

This seems almost accurate... how very odd.

The most dangerous kind of evil... I like that. :P

You Are 32% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Heh.

The most dangerous kind of evil... I like that. :P

You Are 32% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Heh.

Katy. Can. Draw... on a computer.

I'm so excited! I can actually draw guys! Ahhhhh. Haha. Yeah... well... k.

I drew this guy... on the computer. Heh. Anyway... it almost looks like he belongs on Clone High, cuz of the way he's outlined... I dunno it's pretty sweet.

Even Fred said it was looking pretty good. FRED. He never compliments my stuff... he usually only praises Stacey. Oh well. That's cuz she's like... real artist type. GRr. Haha. But yeah, it's like the best drawing I've ever done... out of anything. Ever. Hahaha. That might be a little much, but I'm not that good of an artist... So I was feeling pretty good... yeah. It was nice. Compared to yesterday... ugh. That was just bad. Yeah.

I copied him from a real picture. Sort of. I added a beret. Cuz I couldn't figure out how I should do his hair. Haha. He was pretty much bald anyway. So yeah. I might send a copy, Chels... heh. Along with your bday present and that other picture I was sposed to send you... it's pretty awesome. Hahaha. :P

And I have tomorrow off! This is like the best day ever! Yay! And Mandy's gonna phone me later, so I'll tell her all of this... yeah. It'll be great. Cya.